Half Finished, Still In Progress

At university, I thought that building my portfolio would feel clear; ticking boxes, completing projects and slowly polishing skills learnt. However, it has never felt like that, no project is ever really finished.

Instead, it almost feels uncertain and messy. People think images can show what I am capable of, but to me I am always going to be capable of more - these images merely just show where I am at. Some pieces can be stronger than others, some can be rushed and some I can look back on and barely recognise. But to me that’s the point. Yes, my portfolio is meant to be a collection of my best work, but to me it is also a reflection. Showing others what I am capable of both physically and mentally. Recognising my growth, mistakes and the moments I am still figuring out.

That is not to say there is no pressure to the standard of me work… believe me there is. The quiet expectation that everything you produce should be MORE than good - impressive! And although that pressure can take over at times I am learning to see it differently. No person ever learns from getting it right the first time.

To me - showing up, trying, failing and improving is enough to help build my portfolio. Each image, project and idea is just another building block to my tower of ideas I am still wanting to create

My portfolio isn’t finished and maybe it never will be.